Happy rebirthday to me…

Today marks the first anniversary of my first and most powerful nirvana experience. I wish I could say it¬†has had a profound impact on my life. I guess my basic perspectives on the universe and consciousness and mankind have changed. So, ok, I should give it some credit ūüôā

But frankly, I’d completely forgotten about it until I saw the date on my calendar. And overall, my habits haven’t changed much. I still eat junk food. I still judge people. I still self-sabotage. I guess the empowering lesson here is that transformation really is about deliberate changes over time, not a one-off reboot.

When I tell people about my “journey” from an engineer to a life coach, I skip the part where I experience¬†nirvana. The real story has a sort of symmetry in its outline:

  1. Corporate
  2. Nothing
  3. Acting
  4. Nirvana
  5. Coaching

There’s an alternating of Doing and Being.

But I leave out Part 4 of the story, partly because I’ve found the experience hard to explain convincingly, partly because I don’t want to lose credibility (“I’m one of those¬†woowoo people!”), partly because I don’t want people to think you have to go through a profound experience to change (you don’t), but very often¬†because… I forget.¬†It’s hard to hold on to.

I have a lot of thoughts and questions on the science of the whole thing. And how I can experience it again, and preferably not by hitting rock bottom. But today I just wanted to¬†leave a marker so I won’t forget again…